aimless?

Lets just assume that no one reads this anymore. Then I shall proceed. It's been a year since I graduated, and I'm not sure why I was in such a rush to finish. School meant people, gatherings, academic debates, conferences, free time and lazy sunny days. Work means trapped at a desk, isolation, repetition, redundancies - meaning that I'm not where I want to be and impatient about getting there. Harder still, or maybe just the same, is the balance between home life and work life. Shall one be sacrificed for another? It is possible to have it all? Are we the greedy generation, trying to have the ideal job, the ideal amount of free time, and the perfect friends and family? Or perhaps it's just BC, where play outside is valued more than work, and is skewing my original plan.

When young, one is expected to work for experience, not money. To listen and learn, rather than lead and experiment. At what point does that change? Are we also greedy for acknowledgement, selfish people who want every deed noticed and appreciated? It's no longer enough that we are simply granted a place in the workforce. And why is that? Do we have more value than past generations? Has widespread university education influenced the need for recognition and value?

So what do I want? Acknowledgment, appreciation, fun, adventure. I want it all, at my 'young' age. Patience to get to that level I lack. I also want social gatherings, potlucks and people around like it used to be. Roommates - who lives alone? It's so...alone.

Ah, complaint after complaint. Getting time to enact a change me thinks.